I check my e-mail way too much. The funny thing is that I haven't gotten a single e-mail in the last few days that I have really wanted to get, so to speak. The ones that I am waiting for are from people who might, who knows, end up being "Mrs. Right" so to speak. But I end up getting lots of junk mail. Every time I have new mail I always have the same reaction. I think it's going to be that long awaited e-mail and oh! No, sorry, this is spam for a weight loss product. Why don't you just try being really miserable - it's gotten me to apparently lose weight, but only from my face. This, according to my mother. She always likes to comment on my weight. Either "oh, you better start exercising" or "oh, you really have lost weight, haven't you".

I saw my grandmother today. She's not doing too well. My father told me she left a message on his answering machine and she cannot recall making the phone call. I don't see her recovering any further from the stroke.

I'm going to bed. I don't really want to be awake right now. Heck, it's rare these days that I want to be awake. I am so afraid of not finding a job.

feeling: : uncomfortable
la musique: : Love Hina - Sakura Saku [Lullaby Version]