I keep hoping that this feeling of dread will go away, that I will start feeling better about how the way things didn't work out but it's not happening. Give it time, I know, but in the meanwhile I am feeling fat and unemployed. I have no idea when I'm going to get any word as to my dvds and books which are all still in an entirely different country.

And what's the deal with getting a job? You'd think with all the experience I have being an editor at Go Inside magazine I would find it a little easier to find a copy editor job or something along those lines. Really. Hire me, someone.

feeling: : frustrated