http://www.livejournal.com/users/gordond/80917.html
i wrote it in june of 2003 when i was still struggler sensei in regards to smoking. mind you i had a fixed one per day that i would permit myself but when i got back to manhattan it got worse particularly when my flatmate would give me anything he didn't feel like finishing which was, well, everything, and he was lighting up every several minutes only to not feel like finishing halfway through....