I can't quite tell if things are getting better or worse. This morning, with some encouragement from her mother, I had the idea that things could possibly work out with Julia. Her mother told me the things that were bothering her, which didn't at all seem like really problems but just issues of miscommunication. Unfortunately, I never got to clarify and make things right, and so it's really, really over. it's so over that, just for fun and to not get too depressed, i'm seeing what kind of people match searches on frum shidduch sites. it's fun. getting my mind off the fact that I came here to get married and start life and now life has to start, as they say, from scratch. maybe miss right will be a new yorker after all.